tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post1643986331637985628..comments2023-11-03T06:27:32.016-07:00Comments on The Baby Chase: No Escape from Childlessnessthe Babychaser:http://www.blogger.com/profile/12205229469287159556noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-10271099651884626622008-11-20T12:41:00.000-08:002008-11-20T12:41:00.000-08:00I found your blog through Nikki, and just wanted t...I found your blog through Nikki, and just wanted to say -- I too have had dreams that shatter me. It seems crazy, oh so crazy, that we hold onto hope after so many disappointments, so many loses. I'm in my last cycle right now, and trying to hold onto hope for my 2ww. It's about the most insane thing to still be clinging to hope that this could actually happen. I'm hoping against all odds that miracles can come true, but somehow not so sure.Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07089321888189715242noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-63392300189032729942008-11-17T14:14:00.000-08:002008-11-17T14:14:00.000-08:00How weird. I had a dream last night that was simil...How weird. I had a dream last night that was similar in terms of the highs and lows aspect. And I wholeheartedly agree that it is an absolute bitch to have to face reality in a dream. <BR/><BR/>Wishing you sweeter dreams that give you respite from the reality of the break, the heartache, and just all of the highs and lows of this journey.annacyclopediahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10461037288546901657noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-45313235742199251612008-11-14T11:03:00.001-08:002008-11-14T11:03:00.001-08:00I'm sorry about your dream. Unfortunately we can't...I'm sorry about your dream. Unfortunately we can't control our dreams any more than we can control our fertility (or infertility for that matter). <BR/><BR/>I know what it feels to want a child so badly. It's more than a want, it's a primal need. Like the need for air or water or food. <BR/><BR/>All I can say is that I wish from the bottom of my heart that you get your heart's desire. <BR/><BR/>Sending you lots of hugs.Jooniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14413854802177575118noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-77123707331458762862008-11-14T11:03:00.000-08:002008-11-14T11:03:00.000-08:00Oh, your poor dreaming head! Yeah, I have those k...Oh, your poor dreaming head! Yeah, I have those kinds of things in my dreams, too, where I get randomly slammed by some sort of unrelated real-life fact. It is always so disturbing. <BR/><BR/>And even though turkey day is only 2 weeks off, I still am not positive that we are going up to DC, 'cos H can't make up his mind. I will, of course, let you know as SOON as I can get that dude to give me a yes or no.katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08056463808792013011noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-7007959136880862102008-11-14T10:04:00.000-08:002008-11-14T10:04:00.000-08:00It sucks that even when "resting" there cans ometi...It sucks that even when "resting" there cans ometimes be no escape.<BR/><BR/>"Hearting" you.Ms. Jhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04734867984972785143noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-5098917159862818692008-11-14T06:58:00.000-08:002008-11-14T06:58:00.000-08:00The most interesting part of your dream for me was...The most interesting part of your dream for me was that contrast of the joy of your own freedom, zooming around in the heights, and the incredible blow of that violation by that stranger, who offhandedly punctured your deepest desire. The great highs and the bitter lows.<BR/><BR/>A lot like cycling, in a way.<BR/><BR/>I know that pain of seeing a wonderful child and how it feels like a physical blow, a punch to the lower belly.<BR/><BR/>I hope you get some of that giddy joy this weekend (from a fellow lady in waiting).Shinejilhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03353174053245279899noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-74381325227926684062008-11-14T03:01:00.000-08:002008-11-14T03:01:00.000-08:00Whether you're taking a break or actively trying, ...Whether you're taking a break or actively trying, the fear that things may never work out for you is always present. I'm so sorry you had such a bad dream.Suehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08188110112312139648noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-91675136460711672622008-11-13T20:34:00.000-08:002008-11-13T20:34:00.000-08:00Oh, by the way - Thomas, the gray cat does get und...Oh, by the way - Thomas, the gray cat does get under the covers in between us at night and puts his head on the pillow. He's a goof.<BR/>How's your kitty?Iohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00918928563224342054noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-8189119218707939522008-11-13T20:16:00.000-08:002008-11-13T20:16:00.000-08:00This break that I don't want to be on is not reall...This break that I don't want to be on is not really helping. (Of course by break, I never started so it's not really a break I guess. Eh, whatev.) I think being on a break, for whatever reason, just reminds you how far off things seem. <BR/>And your stupid subconscious is just confused because what it MEANT to say was no baby this month. But someday, it will happen.Iohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00918928563224342054noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-48769158680394921822008-11-13T15:00:00.000-08:002008-11-13T15:00:00.000-08:00I am sorry about your horrible dream. You are so ...I am sorry about your horrible dream. You are so right when you say you deserve at least happy dreams, dammit!<BR/><BR/>I wonder if these dreams aren't so much prescient as they are a bubbling up of your fears? (I mean, screw old guy in the dream. What the hell does he know, anyway?)<BR/><BR/>Taking a break from cycling sounds good in theory but, in my experience, is excruciating. And I wonder if that's not also playing into this dream? Just a few thoughts from an outside observer.<BR/><BR/>I wish for you better dreams at night and much happier days.Alyssahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06996076537007147834noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-19622266857743620442008-11-13T14:40:00.000-08:002008-11-13T14:40:00.000-08:00You said: "I think that being “on a break” is maki...You said: "I think that being “on a break” is making cycling seem so distant and foreign that I can’t believe I’m going to be back in it next year."<BR/><BR/>I say: ""I think that being “on a break” is making <B>assisted</B> cycling seem so distant and foreign that I can’t believe <B>it'll ever happen again</B>."<BR/><BR/>I call this "IF Purgatory".Mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07923049494756911105noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-35629375055128616442008-11-13T14:05:00.000-08:002008-11-13T14:05:00.000-08:00It's easy to be mad at ourselves becasue we want. ...It's easy to be mad at ourselves becasue we want. We can't just give up and walk away. It's always there. The want. It would be so much easier to just not want it. But we do. So we'll go to great lengths to fulfill that.Peevemehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15380650452145936082noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2701294853944479424.post-81012010000965409852008-11-13T13:45:00.000-08:002008-11-13T13:45:00.000-08:00You're right - there is no escape from the pain of...You're right - there is no escape from the pain of childlessness. It's in our heads, hearts, dreams, lives, fucki** everywhere!<BR/><BR/>Sorry about the deep sadness of your dream, and I wish you better days ahead.Nikkihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15469466620967385694noreply@blogger.com