Today is the fourth day that I have POAS. I was trying not to be too worried that the tests weren't getting any darker. But today it was even lighter--a very very very faint line. It was my last test, and I was panicked.
It was 6 a.m. when I took the test. My last test, because I figured that once I had my beta I could stop obsessively peeing on expensive sticks every day. But I was so freaked out by the results that I dragged some clothes off and ran out to the grocery store (which luckily opens at 6) to buy another test.
I think I'm actually going insane. I can't believe I did that. And it's not like the second test was any better.
I know a pee-stick test is just an IF-you're-pregnant test, not a HOW-pregnant-are-you test. But I can't help but think this is very bad. If multiple tests are showing less HCG than the ones from two days ago, isn't that a sign that my beta is not doubling?
I asked my nurse this morning when she took my blood, and she said it doesn't mean anything. But I'm not sure I believe her.
I'm losing my mind.