Saturday, April 19, 2008

Negative

Best cycle ever. Most eggs. Most blasts. And all I've got to show for it is a big fucking negative.

7 comments:

Working Girl said...

I am devastated and heartbroken. I was so hopeful for you and J. I am so angry at how unfair this is for you and the rest of us. Treat yourself kindly.

Io said...

Oh no.
I don't know what to say, because words can't fix wounds like that. I am so heartbroken for you.

Newt said...

Oh hell. I'm so sorry.

Jen said...

Oh, no. No no no. This is so unfair, and my heart is broken for you.

Please take special care of yourself, and be easy on yourself.

I can't even tell you how sorry I am. The best I can do is send you out a virtual hug and let you know that you're on my mind.

kate said...

I'm so terribly sorry. I feel like I've been kicked in the gut. It's just so fucking unfair. I'm so incredibly pissed that this didn't work out for you. Just pissed and sad and shaking my fists at the universe at the absurdity of it all. Grrrr. I mean, I know that it's all of this and more for you, but just know that I'm with you and that I feel for you and that I'm punching air for you down here in NC.

Bust open the wine, girl. Rent terrible movies and then take them back to the rental store and bitch at the clerk for having such crappy movies. Look up people who were mean to you ten years ago, and call them up and rip them a new one. Sit in your car and honk the horn and scream until the neighbors call the police. I mean, you're probably more mature than me, but that's what I'd do. If you want to scream at someone, you can call me up and scream at me anytime you want (3369234242). I mean it. Any time at all.

I'm just so incredibly sad for you. Fuck.

peesticksandstones said...

Uggggh! It is beyond frustrating to have such a cycle fail -- but a "textbook" one failing is a special kinda shitty in itself. I am so, so sorry to hear this.

Hang in there, lady! I'll be around, too, when you get around to getting back on the treatment horse. Until then, go easy on yourself -- and join me in sipping plenty of (virtual) frozen margaritas.

Pamela Jeanne said...

So very, very sorry. I can't help but get mad all over again when I think about how difficult the whole IVF experience of hopeful expectation can be -- how it can let us down so hard after so many encouraging signs...