Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Down to Six

This cycle sucks. Six of my eggs fertilized (thanks to ICSI). Just for some perspective, in my last cycle at this point I had 12 fertilized eggs. And please note that I still didn’t end up with one that was good enough to last.

It’s looking like we’re going to do a 3-day transfer (which I’ve never done). I feel like I’m going backwards. This is so discouraging.

13 comments:

Io said...

Aw honey. Don't give in the the ugs.
I wish there were something better to say than the usual "it only takes one" carp. But seriously, I'm hoping you have a quality kid in that sixsome.

Shinejil said...

I'm so sorry, Babychaser. This does suck, but it ain't over yet.

annacyclopedia said...

I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I can feel your disappointment coming through. But Shinejil is right - it's not over yet. I'm holding hope for you so you don't have to right now.

kate said...

I wish I had something to offer besides, "Chin up!", but I'm a pathetic selfish loser who can focus only on myself (at least it feels that way right now...).

All the same, I wish I could un-discourage you. The best I can offer is CHIN UP! and IT ONLY TAKES ONE! and all that jazz.

Let's just put it this way- you are NOT going backwards at all! You are further forwards on your journey than I ever have been.

I have been having some really fucked up dreams about parenting lately, and have been having serious second thoughts about the whole delay-parenthood-for-career thing. It's really messing with my head, and I read so often about people just jumping out there and forging on in the face of disappointment, etc., and it makes me excited to know such people. I am so very easily discouraged myself, and to see you, keeping on, etc., well- it's nice to know that someone can.

Newt said...

I'm so sorry you're disappointed.

I am pulling for you and your six little fighters. Stay tough.

Barb said...

Hang in there. I know it's awful.

Rebeccah said...

Oh that's got to be really disappointing. I'm sorry.

I'm still holding out buckets full of hope for you though! A nurse once told me that they act like they know what they're doing and they say they know what works and what doesn't, but really when it all comes down to it, whether or not someone gets pregnant is pretty much voodoo. Which is just another way of saying that it could still happen for you, and what a great story you'd have.

Sue said...

Don't get discouraged yet - it's still early! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and your embryos.

Ms Heathen said...

Hang on in there, babychaser!

As others have already said, this isn't over yet. I know that you're finding it difficult to stay positive, but am still holding out hope on your behalf.

Joonie said...

Hang in there babe! I'm sending you well wishes and hugs.

Malloryn said...

I'm so sorry that this cycle didn't turn out as well as you would've wanted. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. ::hugs::

Amber said...

I'm sorry things don't appear to be more hopeful. Not to be all "Mary-Sunshiny" but you never know how things will turn out.

Pamela Jeanne said...

Wishing you the best...

(and I read your comments on Peesticks and couldn't agree more).